That time I disappeared...for 7 months...

I just realized that it's been about 7 months since I last posted. 

What?! 

I knew it had been a while since I've been feeling antsy, and lately I've been scribbling things down on receipts and index cards because, let's be honest here, I HAVEN'T HAD A DECENT WRITING SESSION IN A LONG A** TIME! And as my scraps-of-scribbles pile has grown, so too has my antsy-ness. 

Now I have a box full of chicken scratch-covered paper bits, and it is way too unorganized of a writing process.

So, to make a long ramble even longer...I've intentionally put aside time this week to sit down, write, and update my blog with posts about my new job--Yay!!

Until next post...

--Lauren

because I'm a book nerd...

So I stumbled across this gem of a video while wasting time online today. Because I'm such a book lover and I'm obsessed with organizing/reorganizing my bookshelves, I thought this was amazing!

Here's the video:

The Joy of Books

I can't imagine how long it took to do this; I can only appreciate the work that went into it.

... And, once again, I am wasting time online by watching videos about books instead of actually working on writing my own book.

Time to head to the sunny backyard and work where there's no internet connection.

2012 Checklist

1. Become a bartender

2. Finish a story

3. Do something big

I don't know what my "something big" will be; I just know that I want to do something that will surprise me and make me believe in my own talents again.

Somehow I've started believing that my talents aren't really talents. That I'm not quite as gifted as I once thought myself to be. I've felt belief in myself begin to flicker and fade, and I now question my own potential. Luckily this has scared the hibernating writer in me into making her presence known. She showed up today and scribbled some words that shocked a good dose of self-respect back into me.

I may not be destined to be the novelist I once dreamt of becoming. But maybe there's another form of writing more naturally suited to my style.

My heart sits full of unknowns, but in this upcoming year I have the vaguest sketch of a plan. To do the above listed three things. How they get done and the timeframe in which they're completed doesn't matter. As long as I keep the end goal in sight, and move closer to it as the year passes, I'll be happy to meander through ups and downs that 2012 brings my way.

Maybe my 'something big' will just be growing as an individual and as a writer.